Gone baby Gone

I'm outie - if you needs me Google Baitcon & dig the site til you find lodgings for this year's Baitcon XX & the EMERGENCY NUMBER you can reach me thru that - I doubt I will have Cell reception.  I'll be in BFE & I am shutting off my phone from Thursday thru Next Monday when I return to civilization.  I'd say fuck you all But really I just mean the parts of the human race which 

make me want to scratch my eyes out. 

on Fatherless Day

Alone this year - very very alone.  

Not complaining just acknowledging.  I miss my dad.  His birthday passed this week unnoticed by anyone but me.  That's all I got.

Iran

I have no such account myself, but reposts anyway: If you have a Twitter account, set your location to Tehran and your time zone to GMT +3.30. Security forces are hunting for bloggers using location/timezone searches. The more people at this location, the more of a logjam it creates for forces trying to shut Iranians' access to the internet down. Cut, paste and please pass it on.

Pork Lung

H1N1 is killing 2 of every 10,000 people in the US who contract it. That is .02% that is less than 1% of the people who get it. Worldwide (so of course we contribute to this stat - H1N1 is killing 47 in every 10,000 people who contract it. .47% - just under .5% seriously. this is not the end of the world to lose .02% of the population. kick the Captain Trips scenarios out of your noggins. The virus in the Stand had a 99.4% mortality rate -meaning that of every 1000 people who contracted it 994 died. BIG FUCKING DIFFERENCE. I'm just saying. the difference between losing less than 1% of your population and only having 6% left at all.

In my home town which as of the 2000 census had less than 1,000 occupants there might be zero fatalities. So much death & not one where it counts. Egads that was a morbid thought - I don't hate everyone from home but I spent much of my first 20 years hating them, it is a hard habit to fall out of but then hate isn't a habit really too many unrighted wrongs, too many unpaid damages. Seriously.

Bill is dead...

But he wasn't murdered,
But damned if'n that ain't somethin'
I think back on Kwai Chang Caine w/ joi

eeeeeep

I am so excited to grab Caitlin & have her all to myself in less than 2 hours - I am leaving work at 1800 & then driving very carefully to pick her up AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH - why do I have to work at the opposite end of town from her - from the far east suburb to the far west suburb & since the sun came out & dried everything off you know damned well there are going to be cops on the road so slow we will go...

Strange Days in my heart...

I've written on such things before & I feel an update is in order. for names & details & of course the all important whether or not you know the individuals in question please ask me directly. Ahhh such is my life - I have found myself involved in an ever evolving relationship of sorts with the most amazing couple in Philly - I adore them & miss them loads, I find myself batted back and forth tween them whoever is online & has a bit of sparetime when I do. I have undefined relationships growing with several other men (3) all of whom are either married or involved with others but are in open/varying degrees of polyamorous relationships. I'm fighting the urge to really push things forward. I so very much want to sit back & see how things develop. I love the clear & open communications with them & there is an attraction with at least 2 of their other partners as well. I am truly enjoying the exploration & the honesty. & I love the solid friendships they are all based within. Although I am still craving that "get home from work, exchange footrubs, talk, sleep with, wake with, slight tug as we part ways" day to day life with a or several significant others. & for those of you about to point the finger at me screaming "whoreslut!!!" : still no sex for well over a year. I miss sex & proper kissing with someone I am attracted to. & the last time I kissed someone - hmm I was kissed at the last party @ the FTS Compound, but no real attraction there & the last time I slept with anyone I was in Pittsburgh & cuddling Kerry in the early morning hours (thank you Kate for waking me & inviting me - I truly do not have words for how much I needed that.)