Latest in the Most Selfish Man on Earth saga: started hassling me tonight because I said something in front of him that made him uncomfortable. He started at 2200. I have a test tomorrow, a week of tests this week, so of course I am prepared at a moment's notice to re-evaluate my entire relationship w/ him & both of our behavior since then. I am prepared to have a rational discussion aka measured words so that I am not causing him purposeful pain. I acknowledged this as I realized some of my responses were getting sharp. He then decided that this meant that I no longer valued him as a human being & accused me of interrupting his involvements w/ others. I have tried really really hard not to do so. So at midnight - at fucking midnight: He stated that he couldn't trust me being around & then brought up 2 "incidents" from over a month ago - that he'd been clearly holding onto w/ no intentions of bringing up in an other than accusatory manner. At any point if I had offended him he could have said something - he didn't.
I AM FUCKING SICK OF HAVING TO BE HIS GODDAMNED PUNCHING BAG WHENEVER HE DECIDES TO MISUNDERSTAND ME OR JUST FEELS LIKE LASHING OUT AT ME.
I am sick of dealing with his fragile fucking ego & being nice & being kind. I call him selfish. He is selfish. He has behaved in a selfish manner in his interactions with me. He wants to "salvage our friendship" but then only has any interest in this when I do something that he finds displeasing. WTF - I'm supposed to trust that shit???
& now suddenly just like before he has no interest in it. Funny that load of bullshit he'd tried so hard to sell me tonight.
I am worth more than this crap.
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